I am not suitable for people who go to work.

I am not suitable for people who go to work.

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I am not suitable for people who go to work.

"If you don't consider income and face, what do you most want to do?"

The Douban users under this topic have chosen "freelance". However, in the real China where they are, freelance is still regarded as the opposite of "stable", the choice of "rich and willful", and it is a last resort under the mid-life crisis.

Beijing, Shanghai, and Shenzhen are the first to try freelance young people. They are often asked: Are you free? How to feed yourself? What should I do in the future?

And they all asked their questions: What is the job for?

  1. There is only one fake Dirk. What do I do?"



One thing that a whale now has to do every month is the P-salary. "Give my mom, she doesn't know that I haven't been to work for a long time." When she sat down at the cafe, she began to talk about her freelance career.

She has short hair, loose white T, and a pair of large-lens round-frame glasses, full of smiles, and a strong desire to confide.

At the end of 2018, the whales did not go to work. The reason for resignation is very "willful", the department has to be sent to Dachang Town, she searched on the map: there is only a fake Discos in the place, what do I figure out, forget it.

The work of the whale is quite easy. Since November 2017, she has been working as an intern scriptwriter in the animation department of an Internet company. After graduation, she turned positive. Flexible commute, colleagues and simple love, the company's "secondary concentration" is high, wearing wigs, wearing Lolita clothing, 趿 slippers are no problem.

But the whales often suddenly collapsed when they went to work.

Energy is often consumed by too many useless things. The whale now speaks with anger: "If you want to make a contract, you must first give it to the legal review. After the legal review, the supervisor has finished the trial, and the director has finished the general manager's trial."

She is positioning herself as a creator, but her work is quantified at a glance, and how many words are written every day, which must be reflected in the weekly report. She can't stand these "surface kungfu," but in a huge system like the company, it must do something like this to reflect the workload. Some colleagues have written "reader group maintenance" on the court. What can be maintained? "There are not many people in the readership who speak at all." There is no need for maintenance at all.

Last March, my boyfriend came out of the bathroom after bathing and saw that the whale was crying and asked her what happened. She cried and said, "My paper format is wrong." - Very small things will crush her.

In March, the graduation thesis has not yet been written, and she has to go to work, and she has to hand it over (at that time she still owes a screenwriter to the outside), and she begins to suffer from insomnia. Lying in bed, she couldn't sleep, she just got up and sat down, or went to the balcony to smoke. Sigh while smoking.

This girl with a face of sunshine and a single foot on the scooter appeared in front of me, opened WeChat, entered "unhappy" in the search bar, and jumped out of the spit that she sent to her friend when she went to work. "A new day, a new unhappy."

Once she did not fall asleep for two days. A friend of psychology is worried about her. You are at least anxious if you are not anxious. You should go to a psychiatrist to help you.

Psychologists suggest: You must break down the time and force yourself to find at least ten minutes a day to do something meaningless and easy.

For one month in a row, before going to bed every night, the whales will go to the boyfriend to sing a song. She feels better.

But psychological adjustment can only help her ease her mood and not change her mind. On a rainy day, traffic jams can't reach the car for two hours. When I see it late, the whale is on the verge of collapse.

She became a kind of savage person - frequently complaining to the taxi platform, the momentum is extraordinary: the phone hits the past, does not give the other party a chance to chill, come up and show the position, "OK, we don't want so much nonsense, Let's solve the problem." I said the problem in one brain, and immediately set a deadline for the other party. "You must answer me before noon."

In July 2018, after the graduation of the whale, it became a formal employee for one month. The department was planning to dispatch the staff to the film and television base in Dachang Town due to structural adjustment.

She resigned, "I don't want to eat fake Dicos."

For two weeks, she didn't do anything, and she felt alive.


When studying at the Film Academy, the whales are part-time candidates for training in training institutions. In the last hour class, she earned 500 yuan. She was able to go to 9 hours a day, and 4,500 yuan a day was close to her salary for one month.

"I think I can earn enough for a month's salary in the company, and I won't panic."

After not going to work, the whale felt that the whole person had slackened. She hasn't called the car platform for a long time, and she has begun to pay attention to the interesting things around me.

The five senses of the whole person seemed to wake up.

For a while, she wrote a comic book comic, wrote in the middle of the night, and suddenly heard a voice behind her - that was her boyfriend, "sleeping like a pig", "If you talk about your dreams, you can laugh," she Relish with gusto, "very wonderful."

She even has the leisure to take the subway and observe people of all kinds. Once, the whale saw an old couple, Grandpa pushed his grandmother in a wheelchair and ran fast in the transfer lane. After running for a while, the two suddenly stopped and changed each other. Grandma pushed her grandfather to run, and even ran very fast! A whale laughs: When I am old, it is good for someone to play with me.

Another time, go out to catch the morning peak. The subway is crowded and people are close to people. The boy next to him "is a programmer at first glance", bald, carrying a Swiss army knife shoulder bag, a crumpled plaid shirt, face acne, the hand holding a hammer cell phone hard from the side of the shoulder. She saw him write on the note: "The subway in the big city makes the busy people tolerant."

She feels that these useless things nourish her creation.


Before you write a script, you must first "fishing the fish." Brush Weibo, chat with friends and find your hand. Afternoon, everyone went to sleep, and the surrounding area was quiet. She looked like a hibernating bear, looking for a comfortable place - sometimes a cat litter, a desk, sitting down, opening a pack of Oreo, dead The sweet and sweet cookies are refreshing and burying their heads until 6 am the next day.

When I got stuck, the whales went to cut the potatoes, cut potato, and the plot was released.

Originally, I wanted to take a break and then find a job. After a while, she found out that "rest is very happy", then I didn't go to work, and officially became a freelancer. Every month she also has a quantitative thing to do, and that is to use Photoshop to give her a P salary.

 2. Earn the first 2 million in life, "I am surprised myself."

Tu Yan’s suspicion of the workplace also stems from a small moment.

In 2013, she worked in a Japanese company in Shanghai. At the age of 22, she was recruited to replace her predecessor. Before the maternity leave, the female predecessors in their 30s were busy every day, but after her vacation, the leaders immediately began to discuss her future positions. Tu Yan thought, waiting for himself more than 30, but do not want to continue to squeeze the subway, continue to be judged by the head.

Soon, Tu Yan became a cadre, no one remembers the predecessor.

In 2015, Tu Yan entered another Japanese company that was mainly responsible for organizing corporate culture activities. She is still hot, the company started work at 9 o'clock, and Tu Yan insisted on arriving at the post from 7 o'clock until 8 p.m. Sometimes the event is approaching, meeting at night, she will work until one or two in the morning.

In 2016, the company took over a large company with a large event of 5,000 people – this is the largest event that Tu Yan has handled. She became the main person in charge, led three Japanese employees, and added 200 hours a month. In addition to sleeping at home, it is a bath, and then continue to work back to the company.

On the day of the event, dozens of companies were gathered in the sports center. Sudden accidents in the middle, "啪", the whole booth was cut off, and Tu Yan collapsed. The host had to be announced on the spot: "Because of the venue, there is no electricity here."

Carefully prepared for months of events ended unexpectedly. At the end of the event, everyone went to celebrate, and Tu Yan did not go, went home and slept. Woke up the next day, the words that came out of her mind were "no meaning."

She couldn't lift her strength, walked on the road, and looked distractedly about "whether it is work or not." Her boss, the polite Japanese, said to her, Tusang, go back to rest.

Two weeks later, she resigned. Set a ticket to Yunnan.

On the side of the small river in Shaxi Ancient Town, Tu Yan stood on the bridge and watched the flowing water flowing down from the foot. The lights in the distant houses flashed and I was moved into tears. "My cry is a cry of positive energy. Life can be like this, not like I did before." Before, she was an overly stringed string.

The decision to become a freelancer, many people first responded to envy "freedom", and then the most concerned about the actual problem, not going to work, how to live?

This is also the most uncertain of Yan Yan at the beginning.

She was full of blood and romance. She opened a nail shop on Wuyuan Road. She held a themed event every month in the store, symbolically collecting 19 yuan, but the store was losing money every month.

In 2018, Tu Yan walked into the park, and the sun was fierce. She spread herself and exposed it for 20 minutes.

She is determined to transfer the poorly run nail shop and do the old ones that can support her – organizing events for Japanese companies. She set the KPI, and her income in 2018 will be at least equal to the previous job – a monthly salary of 17,000.

She listed the resources at hand, and made 10 calls every day: I left the job, and now I am alone if it is convenient, I want to visit in person. Unexpectedly, most people rejected her. But as long as there is a person who has the same opinion, it may be a big one, enough for her to do it.

Every e-mail sent out, Tu Yan is carrying the exquisiteness of the employees of Japanese enterprises, sincerely telling the beginning of their own business, and remembering the past experiences of the other side, writing down some warm little things.

In June 2018, Tu Yan received the first event - a large event of three or four hundred government agencies. Unexpectedly, the first customer to find her activities was her knowledge of the past.

The first time I met, the two sides talked for an hour and a half. At the end of the talks, Tu Yan has already determined the framework of the activity. The other party was surprised that this young girl was so efficient. Since then, the agency has handed over the relevant activities to Tu Yan. Japanese companies’ orders also achieved zero breakthroughs.

For these orders, Tu Yanquan is looking for freelancers to work together to minimize costs. After doing freelance work, Tu Yantai found that this group is already very large. A social networking site is the main platform for many people to display their articles or designs. When you know one, you will know a group.

At one glance, Yan Yan can see who is more reliable. First, whether it is organized or not, and whether the agreed matter will be answered within the agreed time. There is also the handling of details. For example, two people who do the same design, one-handed over the work, and one, attached to the interpretation of their ideas outside the work, then she would be more inclined to cooperate with the latter.

She showed me her schedule, and the pens of various colors marked the nodes of different activities, and there were almost no vacancies. The most exaggerated October 2018, she has to catch three cities a day. By the end of the year, Tu Yan had calculated that she had completed 2 million results. After deducting the cost, the profit far exceeded the KPI she set for herself. “I was surprised.”

3. "Let me know or give me millions? I will choose later"


After launching the "100 non-workers" independent interview program in February 2018, Lin An found that people who choose not to work have similar temperaments - they are not comfortable with the status quo and like to do challenging things. "They are free to choose what they like and can support themselves. I am very yearning."

Whether passive or active, most freelancers start from being tired of past work conditions and can no longer safely “make-up”.

Before becoming an indie game developer, Toto has been in the game industry for more than a decade. When the company is the largest, there are fifty or sixty employees, but Taihao does not want to stick to it anymore.

"Most of the games are free on the surface, but there are a lot of charging points in the process, building a building, or spending 20 hours, or spending diamonds, spending no limit. The structure of commercial games becomes 99% of the player's time, 1 % Players invest huge sums of money. To make a profit, the company is tilting towards this 1%, and the game is no longer the narrow 'game' that I understand. ”

He became divided. And a group of friends in the independent game circle screamed on QQ, unscrupulous merchants deceive consumers, earning black money. After the end, QQ is off, continue to write code for “unscrupulous merchants”.

This day lasted two or three years, he decided to quit and become an independent game developer.

In the eyes of the people around you, Taihao is probably a failed entrepreneur. He has been in the bamboo basket for many years. But he started what he wanted to do and freely built his world - a beautiful source of peach blossoms. There is land, flowing water and houses that change with the changes in the solar terms. The peach blossoms have passed through the day, and the outside world has been around for a year. Therefore, every other time, outside news will come. The dynasty changed and the technology evolved. The villagers of Taohuayuan also constantly improved their production technology.

Indie games take a long time without income, and nine out of ten people give up this path because of various realities.

Too is very grateful to her mother for supporting him again, giving him financial assistance every month. Many years ago, my mother had supported him to do another thing - "get out of the cabinet." "Your mother has gone abroad to study and has seen gay parades. This is not a problem."

Xiaochun, who is in the same city as Taihao, is "a person who is not suitable for going to work."

Since she resigned for the first time, she has resigned faster and faster, and the time she goes to work is calculated as “week”. Friends are always joking: have you resigned? How many weeks have you been doing this?

Behind the resignation is a deep confusion.

She is a contributor to Beijing, switching from a new media to another. She found that she did not believe in what she wrote, did not like to chase hot spots, and did not agree with the way new media was written.

When she was most uncomfortable at work, she learned to drink. After work, the tongue is slightly knotted, and the spirit is at the critical point of drunkenness and sobriety. The next morning, I had a cup of coffee to wake up. Anyway, the job was to "pretend in front of the computer" - "I don't know if I am doing it." Until she sent a message to HR, telling you a piece of bad news, I will not go to work tomorrow. And I won’t go anymore. HR is very calm, replies with a tone that is not used to it: Ok, let's do the procedure.

Every time he resigned, Xiaochun would go to the park and sit idle for half a day. After Qian Huaguang, she will continue to send resumes, interviews, and find a new job.

"I also know that my behavior contains escaping ingredients. When I don't go to work, I lie on the bed bored while persuading myself to go out and do what 28-year-olds should do, go to work, fall in love, get married. Buy a car, buy a house, be a positive person, do something meaningful every day. But what is the meaning?"
  
Freelance illustrator Qing Song is the kind of person who hates "planning."

He will be delighted by the "cooperation blow". "If I cooperate with him, then I have to paint this month, and the time is very fast. I am very happy without cooperation. I can sleep again this month and play every day."

In the past, when he went to work in a design company, he used his book in his pocket every day, painting anytime, anywhere, painting on the roadside, painting on the dinner table, painting on the carousel...

From the day he resigned, he entered the state of doing what he wanted to do. Once a planning director of a famous enterprise helped Qingsong to do career planning, he generously taught him the secrets of the business field and assured him that according to his method, Qingsong could easily earn hundreds of thousands of dollars every year. "But I don't listen because I think it's very troublesome to have goals. I like to live without worry every day."

4. "Now, the company says! can you believe it?"


Because of the departure from the mainstream, “freedom” sometimes brings more anxiety. Because you are a team, decide the direction, and be responsible for the results. What will happen in the future? Will it completely lose the competitiveness of the workplace? The inner fluctuations brought about by the comparison with the people around you... Every freelancer has to face all kinds of uneasiness.

The goal set by A Whale for herself is to write the script she wants to write. She always wanted to write a delicate family story. To this end, she had to do a lot of things that were not "free". For example, she wrote a novel adaptation of a film and television evaluation. She was forced to read a lot of male-oriented YY novels on the website while watching, she turned her eyes: the 啥This thing is also adapted to be a film and television work?”

She also needs to learn to face a lot of things outside of creation, for example, as a small party, how to defend their rights.

In the past two years, the film and television industry suddenly entered the “cold winter”, and the project was doing yellow. She once helped a friend to ask for a salary and went to the labor market to ask for a Northeast aunt. Aunt told her that they had a habit in the village, using a kitchen knife to smash the board while squatting.

They told the aunt's name to the aunt. So, every morning, when the company opened, the aunt reported on time with a kitchen knife and a chopping board. At the door of the door, he smashed his name with a surname and smashed it for three days to recover the money.

Her deeper anxiety is that she is not suitable for writing. This problem has repeatedly tortured her. She often asks herself, can I still write after the age of 30? Do I have any talent? She actively participated in various scriptwriting competitions and wanted to prove herself and relieve anxiety. "But it is quite a drink and thirst."

The problem with Tu Yan is that instead of going to work, it is more exhausting than in the past.

In fact, “overwork” is a problem that many freelancers face because of the fear of losing a customer will lose the possibility of future cooperation. Freelancers generally try not to reject Party A. This can lead to the fact that sometimes the whole piles together, only on the scalp.

In November 2018, Tu Yan fainted in the subway car. When she was lifted from the ground, she felt a pain in her ear—at the moment she fell, sharp earrings pierced into the good meat. She had already started to lose a lot of hair before, wearing a hat all day long.

Some people are too scared. When the independent photographer Xing Tiejun realized that he could not go out for three or four days in a row, he felt terrible. the snowball is getting bigger.

The most exaggerated in 2019, from the beginning of April to the end of May, for a full two months, he received only four shots, and he worked 10 days a month. When a person has a lot of time to spend, it may not be a good thing. "I am too tired, I am idle, that sense of value is simply ..." Long-term non-communication, Xing Tiejun has some incoherence.

Freelance writer Xiao Chun sometimes feels that the room is trapping her like a grave. Whenever she reached a certain limit, she madly wanted to go back to work, squeezing into the glamorous office building, 996 but the high-paying big factory - repeatedly squatting between freedom and going to work, is a state of many freelancers.

Although there is a lot of uneasiness in freelance work, the attraction of “not going to work” is still very large.


In February 2018, Lin An wrote the first story of "100 people who didn't go to work" on Douban. This article was put on the front page. Soon, some publishers found Lin An, hoping to help her publish books... "I realized that there were a lot of people who, like me, secretly glared at another way of working and living."

She also found that more freelancers are trying to find peers, find organizations, and find a sense of belonging.

“Before only one generation, most people still wanted to be full-time employees, to work in a stable full-time job, not to quit or jump only once in their careers. Today's people are rarely slow along this pre-determined career ladder.

The mother of A Whale is the most traditional Chinese mother – working in a power plant in Wuhu, Anhui for a lifetime. The tree that she planted at the factory when she entered the factory is now older than the whale.

Her expectations for her daughter have always been stable: to learn a financial professional, to enter the power plant, to find a man in a power plant to marry, for a lifetime.

A whale said: "The times are different. In the past, state-owned enterprises could control you forever. Now, which company dares to say that I will take care of you for a lifetime, it dares to say, do you dare to believe?"

For her, it is good to just put money in my pocket and control the life of the next three years. The future is too far away. It doesn't make sense to think too much. But she knows that she can't force her mother to understand her choice. She still shows her mother a real P salary every month and tells her: "I am working in Beijing."


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